A needed update

Well, it has been a while since I've updated I realize and I am down 13lbs! I'm starting to notice I look slimmer (I won't use the word skinny yet), my pants are getting saggy (especially in the butt area), and I am no longer wearing spanx.  I am very motivated right now to stay on track.  With that said, Valentine's day was a little crazy; lets just say I started with Krispie Kreme and ended with Cheesecake Factory.  YET!!!!!! I have still lost weight this week.  I am drinking more water naturally, crave fruit, search for protein and enjoy a small sweet every day.  I think filling fulfilled and not deprived with the biggest most important factor with this.  I am also excited about the nice weather, because I hope to start working out again soon, although I haven't decided where yet if anyone has FREE ideas, or ALMOST FREE ideas.  I am hoping the working gym opens up again soon since the "black flood".  Well,  there isn't much more to say other than if you have been following me-thank you I appreciate your interest and support in this journey.  Also, I hope that through this people can feel encouraged. 

>10

Well, this has been quite the week, last I truly blogged it left you with my weight being down 9.5lbs.  After that, this week was a roller coaster of a week with weight, 90% due to the monthly man, he fought a good fight with cravings and water weight.  Also, Superbowl, fought a good fight.  So I crawled and counted my way through the entire week only using 9 weekly points, giving into cravings within reason so that my body felt satisfied.  Not only did I fluctuate up to 3-4 lbs during the last week, but now that the week is up, I've left it ultimately down 10.5lbs!  This is the stuff that lifetime changes are made up of, struggles, give-ins, and victories.  Martha, my WW leader quoted "Victory isn't never failing, its never giving up".

1.5min:5min run x20min

Day 1 of exercise. 1:5min run x25min

A Lifetime.

I was feeling a little down, as in my previous post.  First, the girl that started the week after me is ahead of me in points, then I didn't quite make 10lbs this week, then I really wanted all the bad food in the world this week, and the list goes on and on.

This week's meeting was titled: If you drop one egg it doesn't mean you throw the rest on the floor.  It was much needed, it talked about feeling discouraged, messing up, losing track, gaining weight.  All those thing will happen at some point in our journey, it doesn't mean you give up.  I needed that.  I felt myself feeling like binging and competing with the other girl.  I begin to tell myself: slow and steady wins this race, this is for me not her, this is for the rest of your life, a lose is still a lose, not gaining any is still a lose.  My pants are fitting loser, my tummy is smaller, my body feels better.  I have these draw string sweats that I wear at night, but the string is tied in a knot...today when I got out of bed, I loved when they almost fell off because they don't fit snug.  I am seeing results and thanks for my friends, family, and WW I am feeling good while doing it.

So my first goal is 5%...I have 2.5 to go.

At my next goal...10% and 20lbs the following will happen:
I will post a picture of myself in my starting weight
I will post a picture of myself in my current weight
I will give my starting weight
I will throw my spanx away. :)

Keep cheering me on!

Frustration

Well, this week was a really good "back on track" week for me.  I planned meals with lots of lean meats, veggies, and a carb or two.  Other than wednesday (which was my bad day), I've been right on target; and even then I stayed within limits using only a few of my weekly points.  My frustration comes when I look at the scale and see the same number I've seen the last two weeks.  The number will drop and rise like I'm on a teeter totter.  At one point the scale said I've everything from gained a pound, to lost 9.5lbs.  I know, I know "don't check your scale", but I've done it for so long that its natural habit and I like being able to see how my food impacts  my body, it helps keep me in line with my motivation. I was supposed to start my exercise plan this week, but the cold and snow have been good excuses for me....yesterday?  ooo uhhh iiiii had to wash my hair.  The excuses are unending in that area, the truth is getting started is hard, once I get into it I can go all the time.  Just one Jenn, just once.  All in all though, as frustrating as it has been, I've feel so much better about what I'm putting in my body, my self-control, and my healthy decisions; I even like the fact that my body did not like me wednesday night because of what I put in it-I had heard people talk about that feeling but had never experienced it for myself.  Today's plan is to drink lots of water and tea, eat lots of fruit and veggies, some chicken and I think either asparagus or brussels sprouts....mmmmmmm....I may end the day by enjoying either a hot cocoa or a skinny cow chocolate mint icecream sandwich.  YAY!

Today was worth being bad. Starbucks, muffin, pizza, Soda!!!! I am happy.