Missing the Mark

Well, I didn't gain, but I didn't hit my mark...I wanted that 30lbs this week.  My weigh-in??? 29.8!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?! .2lbs off!  I know I know, I'll hit it next week, but COME ON! So how did I handle this "devestation"? lol Well, after the meeting I went to Starbucks for my venti soy latte, after work, I went to  Chipotle....and got a full 22pt burrito and chips and guac, o and a soda (non-diet).  Why?!?!?! I didn't enjoy the burrito and couldn't finish it or the chips, but why did I feel the need to just go back to my old ways? O man, I felt terrible.  It was so silly, I really ate what I shouldn't and even though I allow some grace and weekly points for my weekends, I set myself for a failed weekend.  I mean, if I had evaluated my situation, I'd have to be honest about the fact that I didn't work out at all this week.  Not once, besides the previous weekend.  So how mad could I be, that 30 is mine, its there, I just have to keep a cool head.  I spent the rest of the weekend very cautious of over indulgence. I had a banquet that night and so I filled up on salad and green beans first and then hit the other stuff, o i ate that cheesecake and dinner roll....but it was the smaller portions I chose.  Today being sunday, I had mexican and pot pie, nothing abnormal there from any other sunday.  All that to say, tomorrow I have to start again, get a grip, and realize that my choices are benefiting my health and that the numbers should come secondary to that.  I will say, I remember the day where I could down a large chipotle burrito, chip and guac, and a large soda without blinking.  I'm glad I am no longer able to do that.

Better a Has-been than a Never-was. But better a Never-was than a Never-tried-to-be.
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